upset & disappointed....

又係講無聊野ge時候啦......
失望&失落 !!
往往所有野都係先失望, 後失落ka啦!!
i like F2B, but i'm sure not everyone like me!! i'm trying my best, or trying to cover my weakness and do the best of mine...
but, that's wrong!! sometimes, when i am filled with full of confidence, i'll always lose!
Ques:what do i lose? money? friendship? family? time?
sometimes, i'll go to my frds' blog to know more daily life about them, i'll enjoy in their blogs very much. but i 'm disappointed also!! why no body types:'' Happy Birthday To Daphne!'' on their blog when i'm on birthday? why the contexts do not include me? now, i'm not quarreling, i only take these as a joke when i'm reading their blog!! ^^
i'm not the leader , the最好一位, the cleverest, the most powerful person in F2B; only a common student, sitting beside yoyo and carmen, behind deniz and in front of daniela.................i also don't want to be the最好一位, too, let me be the middle person, to enjoy the things quietly, noiselessly...
i enjoy every lesson taken by every teacher, i enjoy every things we do in the every break of the lessons, and i enjoy the every laugh, the shout surrounding me!!!
a period of time before, perhaps, i'm full of hatred for some peoples, but now, they are all fine, perfect in my world, in my mine( 除左 Tom)!!


Responds of the Ques above: I lose the friendship.